What if insecurity is a normal part of life?
The other night I saw Bruce Springsteen in an interview. Skavlan asked him if he ever was insecure. The Boss answered: Of course, insecurity will never go away.
And something in me relaxed, I sighed, and noted ”I am not alone in this. Not at all.”
Sometimes it’s like we are supposed to break all our patterns to be courageous, too widen our comfort zone. To walk through fear, and come to another side, where fear since to have vanished.
A while ago I asked my beloved:
– This insecurity of mine, when will it end?
– It will never happen, that’s part of you.
I remember a feeling of disappointment. Parts of me really wants to stop feeling insecure. I mean, I traveled in this body for 61 years. I have met so many challenges. I have succeeded so many times. I have reached further than I ever imagined. I have so many skills. There are people whoactually sees me as a role model.
And there I am. In my insecurities…yes I put it in plural … because it’s there, present in different ways. And sometimes I am not even aware of it.
Why am I programmed to insecurity? Is there a way out of it? Or is it part of being a human being?
Well, it felt comforting to hear that even a person like Bruce Springsteen recognize this. I am so not alone in this. And still, it bothers me a bit. It’s like the insecurity sometimes feels like a wall I am hitting. Like an obstacle. Like something I need to tear down to really be me in totality.
And then another thought comes. What if the insecurity is something that serves me? What if I can be me AND being insecure? What if the insecurity works as a protection from my wildest ideas? What if I lean in to the insecurity and look for what’s underneath.
What is hiding there?
What can you learn from your insecurity?